Dear Little Kris,
How to even start? You are so much younger and I fear there is much you won’t understand. It is not a matter of intellianance, because even at your age you posses a brain of a collage student. It is a fear that emotions will rise up and cloud your judgement. So please take these words as the kindness they were ment to be. There is no judgement only compassion and a deeper understanding of the bigger picture.
I know that right now you feel so alone in this world. It always threatens to collapse on you and snuff that last bit of fire that burns in your eyes. Kris, that fire you perceive is really a raging inferno and nothing can put it out, no amount of tears will drown it, and no drugs will ever calm it. The only one who can control who it burns is you. Right now it may feel best to burn everyone around you because your scared, and your logic would deem it nessary to do so; however, it will also cause all your allies to burn too.
Kris no matter what you think, you are stronger then ever and you will only grow stronger. I wish I could travel back through time just to give you that respect and compassion that you so feircly need and crave. I can only hope that somehow this letter will reach you. You were hurt, but you are not broken, you are not a throwaway. You are still that handsome young man who stands up for his friends and always tries to do what is right.
You were offered a choice by a wolf in sheep’s clothing. it was never a choice, it was entrapment. You are smart, loving, and strong. It matters nill what the rest say about you, because they don’t know you. I know you, we know you. Your life is worth more then all the gold in the world. Stay strong through this, I know you will.
-With love and respect,
The future you.